Samantha’s 17th Birthday

Dirge Without Music

Edna St. Vincent Millay

img_3118smallI am not resigned to the shutting away of loving hearts in the hard ground.
So it is, and so it will be, for so it has been, time out of mind:
Into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely. Crowned
With lilies and with laurel they go; but I am not resigned.

Lovers and thinkers, into the earth with you.
Be one with the dull, the indiscriminate dust.
A fragment of what you felt, of what you knew,
A formula, a phrase remains,—but the best is lost.

photos-07-18-06-002smallThe answers quick and keen, the honest look, the laughter, the love,—
They are gone. They are gone to feed the roses. Elegant and curled
Is the blossom. Fragrant is the blossom. I know. But I do not approve.
More precious was the light in your eyes than all the roses in the world.

Down, down, down into the darkness of the grave
Gently they go, the beautiful, the tender, the kind;
Quietly they go, the intelligent, the witty, the brave.
I know. But I do not approve. And I am not resigned.

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The Answering Machine (five years later)

The Answering Machine

BY LINDA PASTAN

I call and hear your voiceHoward Family
on the answering machine
weeks after your death,
a fledgling ghost still longing
for human messages.

Shall I leave one, telling
how the fabric of our lives
has been ripped before
but that this sudden tear will not
be mended soon or easily?

In your emptying house, othersSam and Veronica
roll up rugs, pack books,
drink coffee at your antique table,
and listen to messages left
on a machine haunted

by the timbre of your voice,
more palpable than photographs
or fingerprints. On this first day
of this first fall without you,
ashamed and resisting

but compelled, I dial again
the number I know by heart,
thankful in a diminished world
for the accidental mercy of machines,
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If I Were In Charge Of The World

by Samantha Howard

If I were in charge of the world
I’d cancel peas,
emptying the dishwasher,
dictionaries, and also 5th period.

If I were in charge of the world
There’d be free laptops for everyone,
Gourmet cafeteria food, and
4 day long school weeks.

If I were in charge of the world
You wouldn’t have friendless.
You wouldn’t have boring.
You wouldn’t have textbooks.
Or “Do your chores.”
You wouldn’t even have chores.

If I were in charge of the world
A piece of bread
would be a vegetable.
All TV would be cable.
And a person who sometimes forgot to put their clothes away,
And sometimes forgot to remember their email password,
Would still be allowed to be
In charge of the world.